Weird. A way to possibly say the shit that visa through my head with few peeking eyes, for now. On my mind currently, the actual love I have for the woman next to me, along with the memory of one that never existed. Tomorrow would have been my 10th wedding anniversary. It is of at times to think I have wasted that much of my life living in fear of that child. It also amazes me that my current girlfriend who is much younger than me is not only more mature but also the best match for me I have ever found. Meh, time to lay down.